I'm a 42 year old mommy with quite a few health, financial and life issues which I am trying to fix, but keep running into road blocks everywhere I turn. I could write a book about my life which may help women and young girls not wind up in the same situation I find myself in right now. I am basically bedridden from a spinal fusion gone wrong and am in constant excrusiating pain. The state has taken away my health insurance as soon as I began receiving disability payments. My surgeon just informed me on September 27th that he will no longer be able to be my doctor, which I cannot afford to pay him out ofpocket any more, and also means that all the medications I am on will stop after I finish the last perscriptions he has given me. I am worried that I will wind up in the hospital from going through withdrawl from the 7 medications I am on when they run out, not to mention how much more pain I will be in. I have an 8 year old little boy who is my world and I am scared to death that I am going to loose my child, because if I am in the hospital there will be noone to take care of him, and we are on the verge of being homless because the friend who took us in may be about to loose his home because while he was out of work he could not keep up on his house payments.  I have a fiance who has been taking care of my little boy because I cannot physically do alot of things for him. We lost our 60 year old floral shop in 2010 because of the economy and because after my surgery in December of 2009 my health deteriorated so much that it caused issues with us being able to run our business because he was trying to take care of me, my little boy and our 4 daughters who do not live with us . We lost it, but just 2 weeks ago my fiance finally got a job, and if I wind up in the hospital, there no way with his schedule, that he will be able to take care of my little man for me. I'm scared, I'm in pain, I want to get better and be able to be the kid of mom that my little boy deserves and the kind of fiance that my man deserves. I use to sing professionally and Manage mailservices for 4 law firms before all this bad stuff happened. I want to go back to being that healthy, skinny, happy energetic person I was before my surgery, but  can't find the help I need to get back to being even half that person.  I wish I could.