mindatpeace's Blog

Maturity

I've recently been dealing with someone, I once considered my Best Friend, but not anymore.  Also, not to brag, or to over-state/exhault my mental capacity-  But i have noticed that i tend to be much more mature in general; more so than those whom are younger than me. 

I have always chosen to strick up friendships and/or relationships with people who are my age or slightly older! I would never be with an "ancient" person, I just want someone slightly older than me- that has gained or maintained some intellegence and most importantly some (at least 80%) maturity!

I have spent my last 1 yr. and 3 months "baby sitting" an alcoholic 30 yr. old.  He has a tendency to get so drunk that he has a "Black-out," and inevitably gets ANGRY, and VIOLENT toward a lot of people. -***BUT***-, even though I don't think having a friendship with you anymore, I will always love you; and I wish you the best in life; - maybe once you will get your shit together (ie.- the Alcohol Evaluation and whatever treatment recommendation they give u - then our friendship might work.).

I am under the belief that an addict will never get clean or even attempt to get their life to together unless they lose it all, and must start all over again.  Thinkin about u and all this shit is making me want to hurt myself- SO i am goin to end this conversation right now and hope that months or years from now, you might begin to understand.